Sarini @ Alos .. started out as a nickname but which eventually became a term of endearment amongst our circle of close frens.. probably coz you’re the ‘skinniest’ (halus!!).. or like I used to tease you without fail.. you’re always ‘lost’ in your own world at times.. Gez now you’re ‘lost’ forever.  You’re in a better place now Alos.  Words fail me at this moment as I’m still trying to grasp your sudden demise.  These darn tears kept getting in the way as I try to pen down my thoughts as it is.  Gez it still hasn’t really sunk in. Kinda feels like I’ve just woken up from a bad dream. Fare thee well my dear friend.. may Allah bless your soul and keeps it in the company of those who are firm believers.  I’ll always remember the days when we’re both much younger.  Our wacky, ‘boy-band chasing’ escapades. Hanging out at hotel lobbies and riding in taxis were no big deal to us back then. Hanging out the back doors of the van, waving like a bunch of crazies at those boy bands we were so crazy about. Those were the days. And then there were the earlier days of being crazy for 4u2c and working in SBC.  Thanks to you for recommending me to work there.  We sure had a blast in those days didn’t we?? The days when I used to sleep over at your place and we’ll both sit up and chitchat all night long.  Together with your sis Ina of course.  Singing songs and even making up poetries.  I will always remember that.  Our ‘dodgy days’ as I fondly call ‘em. 

The 5 of us (Hamidah, Nor, myself, Sareenah & you) – we’re just truly in a league of our own.  We weren’t definitely the ‘popular’ bunch at school but then again, we didn’t really give a hoot.  Just as long as we have our usual ‘spot’ by the ‘longkang’ to stand at during lunch time during our secondary school days.  Thinking back now, I do wonder why the heck we even do that.  And on a regular basis too!! ;p You had always been the most patient and quietest one amongst the 5 of us.  But somehow, we all just clicked.  Gez it’s all fated huh? J Even though at times, you were teased endlessly by the rest of us, you still kept that quiet dignity of yours and just go with the flow.  I must admit that sometimes it drove me kinda nuts seeing you being that way, but now I realise that that is the one thing that makes you stand out as being truly YOU.  No other way to it.  And you sure did have your wacky, ‘cornee’ moments too.  Such a laugh that was whenever it happened.  ;p

4 year of being sec school friends…2 years of being in ITE together.. then another 10 years of being friends and colleagues at the same time.. but sadly, and as much as I hate to say this – I wonder why we didn’t really keep in touch during the last 4 years of our friendship together.  :( I gez there’s no point in bringing that all up now. Only Allah knows best.  Whatever happens, happens for a reason.  But alhamdullilah, I am truly glad and thankful beyond words that all 5 of us managed to finally get together again and celebrate Hari Raya Eidulfitri this year – 2010.  We were complete as a fivesome once more.  Although of course there are some additions to the gang already – hubbies & kids to be exact! :) I still remember the exact words your mom whispered to me as we left your home that nite – “Wonder when will it be yours & Rini’s turn to tie the knot eh??”.  And me being me, candidly I told her, ‘Insya Allah auntie.. all in good time.  The day will come.  Just have to be a bit more patient.” Well Alos, guess it’s just me now to hold the torch for the both of us.  Insya Allah I’m pretty sure you’ll find yours ‘up there’. :’) 

Who would’ve thought it’d be the last time we’d celebrate Eidulfitri together.   16 October 2010 – the day of your sudden demise.  I’m still trying to grasp the reality of it all.  I hope and pray that your beloved family especially your mom would be able to accept your untimely demise.  I hope and pray that they’ll be strong in facing the reality of it all, just as much as I hope and pray for the rest of us who had been close to you.  I know you’ve always been the pillar of your family, supporting them in every way that you possibly can.  I believe at times, others may see you as being a ‘meek’ person, including myself as much as I hate to say it.  But only Allah knows just how strong a person you were and no words could ever describe the degree of all that you had been through. 

My dear mate Sarini @ Alos.. I pray with all my heart that Allah blesses your dear soul and may He places you in the company of those who are believers.  Amin3x ya Rabbal alamin…

Rest in peace Los.. rest assured that you’re not ‘lost’ anymore.. for now you’re in His better hands.. I really do miss you already. :’(

 =C’est Moi= (16 Oct 2010) @ 12 am..

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